Azealia Banks says she was drugged and ‘lowkey just got raped’ on her Instagram story

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Azealia Banks says she was drugged and ‘lowkey just got raped’ on her Instagram story

‘I just feel so dirty and stupid right now’

Azealia Banks has been through a lot in a uniquely public way. From her entrance into the public eye in 2011 with smash hit "212" to her career-stunting Twitter feuds to the whole chicken thing, Banks's story has played out in front of everyone, for better or worse — which makes her most recent announcement so heartbreaking.

This weekend, Banks posted a series of since-deleted videos on her Instagram story, which she says she filmed after she was drugged and raped.

The videos are stream-of-consciousness audio clips where the rapper recounts her feelings while she sobs. "I'm gonna delete all my accounts because I'm just embarrassed," she said through tears. "I just feel really broken down."

You can watch her story in this Youtube video below, but be aware that it is extremely hard to listen to:

Banks's sentiments sound familiar to anyone who has experienced sexual assault — worthlessness, anger, helplessness, and the sense that somehow the fact that she was taken advantage of is her fault.

Banks released a new single, "Anna Wintour", just 10 days prior to the writing of this article, and many people were excited to see the return of the troubled but undeniably talented artist.

ANNA WINTOUR (now I feel in love) lyrics ——— Im so cold I’m so grown I’m so real life/ im so showoff my diamonds designed to twinkle and bleed light…. As the valley fills with darkness shadows chase and run around I can make em stop for me . And no lamb no saviors shelter. I’ll be better off alone I’ll walk at my own pace . I don’t need no one I’ve got my own I’ve got it made. In the morning I cheer for sunshine and I feel but I, don’t feel enough. In the midnight hours I try to- then You show me now I believe . Diamonds and dreams .,come true for girls like me Now I feel in love babe I really know that your love is enough And I’m so lucky you found me in the day I needed love . Now I feel in love babe everywhere you are / your dude came to rock for me hot body yes I got it got it – all of the girls are dance floor queens until I put my blahniks on it . Move and make it hot for me hot rod oh yes I’ll ride it ride it / dance for me get naughty he wild out for these expensive options You know the glow stuntin in front row / shades always these bitches can’t look , no! / bob sleek-chic petite I fit those / en vogue I do what you can’t know!/ I’m runway you know they a side show , I’m first page the Mainstage as I pose/ the one dame the one name that y’all know/ just take Notes stay on top like halo’s/ make peso’s most of these bitches is my clones/ you new puss this catwalk is my throne/ I’m penthouse, you’re trap house and rhinestones/ these diamonds on my bones be my own./ invent styles I been crowned this my home/ bitch I’m grown in ball gowns- it’s french sewn/ you take shots I make shots the end zone/ these bitches overall is some Laura’s they Winslow. then You show me now I believe . Diamonds and dreams .,come true for girls like me Now I feel in love babe I really know that your love is enough And I’m so lucky you found me in the day I needed love . Now I feel in love babe everywhere you are

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Her newest album, Fantasea II: The Second Wave, was slated to drop in June. But in her Instagram story, Banks said that she no longer wants to release more music. "I just feel like a dumbass," she said. "I just want to disappear. I don't think I'm going to be putting out more music."

But since she first posted about her assault on Saturday, Banks has not deleted her account, and has posted on her Instagram story that she is in better spirits and "smiling again."

"It's crazy. Men have all kinds of ulterior motives," she said in an Instagram story posted on Sunday. "Men are really a threat to women."

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